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Lost Valentine

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I walk the beach, our favored spot

Searching for my love.

Pink puffs on blue, sun bursting through

Hopes are riding high

 

Be this the day I see his face

Finding his way back

To hearth and home, his family

Awaiting safe return?

 

I see a man.  He’s coming near

Bursting is my heart

The gait is wrong, the build not his

Smashed to smithereens

 

The gulls are screaming, “Silly girl.

Spirits walk with God.

You look for him, but cannot see.

Open up your mind.”

 

“A special date, a butterfly,

Feathers, pennies find

A rainbow stretched across the sky

Messages of love.”

SUPERMAN

If I were Superman, I’d fly around the world backwards

To turn the time upside down

I’d go back to when my boys were small enough

To hold upon my lap

When we were all a family, my husband, boys and grands.

Go back, I say, to simpler times.

I’d lay beside the man I chose for better or for worse

To feel his heat and love forever.

 

Accept, Forget and Live for now.  This moment’s all I’ve got.

No argument from me.

But I cannot forget what was, my life, my love, my boys.

It’s burned forever in my heart.

The boys are men that need me not. My husband’s gone back home.

Life is good, but much is lost, never to retrieve

If I were Superman, I’d fly around the world backwards

To turn the time upside down.

Final Act

Final act of letting go

Cast to ocean currents

All that’s left of life well lived

Flesh to dust and ashes

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Gentle spirit living on

Freed from Earthly trappings

Soaring as the circling hawk

Time and space forgotten

Alone in a Crowd

Alone in a crowd of strangers

Spinning, twirling where to turn

Adrift in a sea of faces

Searching, looking whom I know

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Not one of the many colors,

Sizes, genders speak to me

For each in a hurry sprinting

Dragging luggage to the gate

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Sardines, we are packed in cramped seats

Harnessed, belted, buckled tight

To wait for the looming take-off

Destination, journey’s end

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Alone in a crowd of strangers

Chaos, turmoil all around

Retreating to my quiet place

Tuning in to higher self

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Adrift in a sea of faces

Spinning, twirling where to turn

Find harmony, peace and love thoughts

Inside you and nowhere else.

Destiny

Loss, disappointment are not the end

But a reason to push past comfort

Open a chapter to destiny

Path to fulfill your divinity

Star Upon The Tree

I set the star upon the tree

A special place on top

Reminder of past Christmases

I spent with my life’s love

 

Did I appreciate those days

While running to and fro

Or did I miss the best of times

Wrapped up in Christmas rush?

 

The baking, cooking, trim the tree,

Will all of it be done

Before the family arrives

For dinner Christmas eve

 

 

We’d stay up late to build the toys

Exhausted, went to bed

Excited boys would wake by five

To see what Santa left

 

I cannot travel back in time

To capture what was lost

My photos of past holidays

Forever warm my heart

 

That special star upon the tree

Burns brighter from above

His spirit lives forever more

In everlasting love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life/Death

Daylight, Darkness

Waking, Sleeping

Life progresses

Day by day

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Status Quo, Change

Reactionary, Revolutionary

Peace, War

Life, then Death.

Step by Step

Marching on step by step

Winds of change drive forward

Packing boxes, purging

Former chapters closing

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What’s ahead unknowing

Daunting plus exciting

Off to learn life’s lessons

Gone the safety net

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Off the cliff, dare to jump

Will I soar or tailspin?

Crash or fly like eagle?

Time will tell the outcome

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Marching on step by step

Are there any choices?

Sun rises every day

I must meet the challenge.

The Way Back

The Way Back from loss

A struggle each day

My heart torn in half

I wished he could stay
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Alas, not to be

His job was complete

Fulfilled, he must go

Ancestors to meet

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The Way Back from grief

I stumble and fall

In potholes of pain

Picked up to stand tall

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New chapters to write

And places to see

More people to help

Adventures for me

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The teacher is life

To live it, to learn

Move forward he says

My love’s at each turn

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The Way Back takes time

To heal and move on

With wide open eyes

To see what’s beyond.

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Excited and daunted

My soul will be fed

I know it’s the path

The Way Back I tread

Gratitude Attitude

From where I sit there are complaints

Of lack, short-falls, life failed.

I feel the pity for myself

For no one else would care.

I cry the tears and lick my wounds

Feel justified, I moan,

Alone, poor me, I dwell depressed.

No joy lives in my heart.

Rejoice, my spirit screams within

Take note of all there is!

Behold, rise up and see the light

For gifts abound around!

Enjoy the gifts each day bestows

Surprises are in store

Be open spirit to receive

The wonders of this world

Change attitude with gratitude

Your heart will overflow

You’ll feel the love, support surround

And know you’re not alone