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Lost Valentine

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I walk the beach, our favored spot

Searching for my love.

Pink puffs on blue, sun bursting through

Hopes are riding high

 

Be this the day I see his face

Finding his way back

To hearth and home, his family

Awaiting safe return?

 

I see a man.  He’s coming near

Bursting is my heart

The gait is wrong, the build not his

Smashed to smithereens

 

The gulls are screaming, “Silly girl.

Spirits walk with God.

You look for him, but cannot see.

Open up your mind.”

 

“A special date, a butterfly,

Feathers, pennies find

A rainbow stretched across the sky

Messages of love.”

SUPERMAN

If I were Superman, I’d fly around the world backwards

To turn the time upside down

I’d go back to when my boys were small enough

To hold upon my lap

When we were all a family, my husband, boys and grands.

Go back, I say, to simpler times.

I’d lay beside the man I chose for better or for worse

To feel his heat and love forever.

 

Accept, Forget and Live for now.  This moment’s all I’ve got.

No argument from me.

But I cannot forget what was, my life, my love, my boys.

It’s burned forever in my heart.

The boys are men that need me not. My husband’s gone back home.

Life is good, but much is lost, never to retrieve

If I were Superman, I’d fly around the world backwards

To turn the time upside down.

Alone in a Crowd

Alone in a crowd of strangers

Spinning, twirling where to turn

Adrift in a sea of faces

Searching, looking whom I know

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Not one of the many colors,

Sizes, genders speak to me

For each in a hurry sprinting

Dragging luggage to the gate

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Sardines, we are packed in cramped seats

Harnessed, belted, buckled tight

To wait for the looming take-off

Destination, journey’s end

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Alone in a crowd of strangers

Chaos, turmoil all around

Retreating to my quiet place

Tuning in to higher self

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Adrift in a sea of faces

Spinning, twirling where to turn

Find harmony, peace and love thoughts

Inside you and nowhere else.

Star Upon The Tree

I set the star upon the tree

A special place on top

Reminder of past Christmases

I spent with my life’s love

 

Did I appreciate those days

While running to and fro

Or did I miss the best of times

Wrapped up in Christmas rush?

 

The baking, cooking, trim the tree,

Will all of it be done

Before the family arrives

For dinner Christmas eve

 

 

We’d stay up late to build the toys

Exhausted, went to bed

Excited boys would wake by five

To see what Santa left

 

I cannot travel back in time

To capture what was lost

My photos of past holidays

Forever warm my heart

 

That special star upon the tree

Burns brighter from above

His spirit lives forever more

In everlasting love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Life/Death

Daylight, Darkness

Waking, Sleeping

Life progresses

Day by day

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Status Quo, Change

Reactionary, Revolutionary

Peace, War

Life, then Death.

The Way Back

The Way Back from loss

A struggle each day

My heart torn in half

I wished he could stay
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Alas, not to be

His job was complete

Fulfilled, he must go

Ancestors to meet

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The Way Back from grief

I stumble and fall

In potholes of pain

Picked up to stand tall

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New chapters to write

And places to see

More people to help

Adventures for me

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The teacher is life

To live it, to learn

Move forward he says

My love’s at each turn

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The Way Back takes time

To heal and move on

With wide open eyes

To see what’s beyond.

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Excited and daunted

My soul will be fed

I know it’s the path

The Way Back I tread

Along the Shore

Crashing waves, I remember
Many walks along the shore
Hand in hand we strolled through life
Facing storms and sunny days

A double rainbow lights the sky
I see your gentle spirit
Telling me your love transcends
Sea and sand along the shore

Brilliant hues against dark sky
Errant waters lap my toes
Feeling close but far away
I walk with you along the shore

Sail on, my Captain

Sixteen years ago I wrote the following lighthearted poem in honor of my husband Roger and two friends, Roger and Mike, who raced our sailboat in the 1998 National Catalina Race held in Westbrook, Connecticut.  They took first for the tall rig division in all three races.  Yes, readers, the sailboat’s name was Sloopy, the inspiration for the fictional 36 foot sloop that Liz and Garret live aboard in Murder in Mystic, Murder in Newport and Two Headed Snake of Key West.  Our Sloopy was fast and my husband could make a mighty Margarita.

I am sharing this with you in memory of my husband, who passed away on July 1, 2014.  Sail on, my captain.

 

The pressure was on

To win a glass cup

Each silently prayed

He wouldn’t screw up

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The guy thing, you know

Machismo, at best

The challenge would come

They’d be put to the test

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The good Lord was laughing

As they hoisted the main.

These three would need blessings,

And more, it was plain

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Wine made from water

Was easy for sure,

But Roger, Mike, Roger

Three races endure?

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The task was immense

But these were nice guys

He raised His arms up

And Sloopy did rise.

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She raced to the finish

Three bullets to boot

Miracles do happen.

There’s proof in the loot.

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The lesson each learned,

To celebrate life

Believe in oneself

Be good to your wife.

Surviving Loss

Stand tall to do it all

Accepting help with grace

The sense of loss will fade

The healing’s not a race

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Reach out to those in need

Give all that you can spare

Your heart will fill with love

While showing that you care

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Be good to you!  Sing!  Dance!

In time the joy returns

Your world will right itself

As everyone learns

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Enjoy each day with thanks

A gift is what it’s called

From up above it comes

Stand tall to do it all

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